I don't know how i'm finding the strength to write this e-mail, especially because it means I have to think about it, and my eyes are filling with tears right this second.

The concert was ....... beyond words for me.

ok, how it started: It was really good, I was in a bad seat, but still loved the brilliant singers, talking about Linda, and Paul. And wondeful charities, and supporting the needy.

The songs were great, especially the heart felt beatle ones, and Paul McCartney ones. Many made me cry, with pictures of Linda on the screens, and beautiful music from very talented stars.

But then in the second half after the interval, my sister and me tried to get a seat together, but the poeple we were around were really - sorry to say it but, stuck up, they wouldn't clap or cheer at hardly any of the acts, and I mean this is for Linda, we were cheering all we could.=0)

Anyway so we spotted 2 spare seats even nearer to the stage, and we were around loads of Veggie, Paul, Linda fans. A dream for me. =0) And my sister is a huge Goerge Micheal fan, and there were loads of George fans there too.=0)

So I sat there with my 27 year old sister, who's got a 8 year old child, as she bawled her eyes out when george came on. Then the guy behind me, who was a Paul lookilikey(!) told us how Paul was up in one of the balconies, with Stella, and some other family - he wasn't sure all the family was there. (i found out later his grandson was!)

I made myself promise myself that Paul wouldn't turn up, because then i wouldn't be heartbroken if he didn't come. But after staring at the balcony he was in for many acts, I gave up becuase it was too dark, even though i'd taken high powered binocholors.

Then Eddie said it.... my heart jumped out, screamed for air, then didn't beat for a long time... "Paul McCartney!"....

First I stared in dis-belief, he was about 7 metres, less even, in front of ME!!!

I never thought i'd ever see him in concert, and there he was, looking F***ing FANTASTIC. The crowds went wild, but I couldn't hear them, then I realised how much I love him, and started to scream as loud, and as high pitched as my body could take.

Then when I realised he was going to sing, I broke down into tears, shaking even more then I already was, my sister had to take the pictures I was too far gone, he was in front of me for gods sakes!!!!!!

Twice during it; either the speaking or the start of singing, I can't remeber, I was too hysterical. He looked up, because we were with all the really big loyal fans, with the t-shirts and banners and everything, and I waved for quite a while, just on my own, and he looked straight at me and smiled, ....right then I could have died.

Then later on, the same thing happened. Everyone calmed down for a bit, and he was looking round stopping at us, since we were obvious worshipers of his, and no-one was clapping him, or waving him, so i waved then too, and it was just me, and he smiled at me. ..

I'm never going to live this down.

When he ended and everyone had been shouting the let it be words, clapping above there heads, stamping there feet, and waving peace signs at him as he looked round, I broke down for the 6th time as I realised the dream I don't even dream about becuase I don't want to tempt fate, ended. =0(

He held up someones Linda heart, and put his hand to his heart and everyone screamed out there final cheers, ....it was so emotional.

The reception all the stars got were great, and then George Micheal got an amazing reception. Most stood through most of it.

But when I realised my life ambition was about to come true and he stepped out, the poeple went mad. By then though I was past caring, if it was just me standing up screaming crying, I wouldn't have cared, i was wrought with all different emotions, but all of them were at the highest theyv'e ever been. Everyone stood, through till the end, from there on, he is the biggest.

For some of you, you'll have already had this, seen him in concert. But for this to be my first ever concert, of any kind, and for it to be based soley on Linda, and then Paul McCartney being metres away, and very emotional with his words about Linda, and his bueatiful singing, I..I .. can't explain it. I always knew if I saw him i'd never, ever forget it, but its even more powerful than that, I will never get over it.

Physically I was wrecked, I still shake when talking about it, still cry, like right now. I haven't lost the feeling in my stomach, its just constantly churning.

I waited outside for an hour, with my dog, that my mum had brought not realising Paul was a huge animal fan, (though i've told her this many times, she's not into the fact I adore a singer, she doesn't know what 'idol' means), anyway I clung on to barney, with a pen and leaflet, thinking if I get this signed I don't know how I can get much happier anyway, so i'll be far gone, to another world!

But the crowd control man pushed me out of the way, just as he came by, and my sister got a wave from him, and not me!! =0(

Anyway now my sister has also fallen in love with paul, and I am not in the least bit surprised. =0) I know i'm only 15, but he has always looked gorgueos, and is ageing even more attractively. Everyone said that, and you'll understand how good this concert was, to a certain extent, when you see it on t.v. (thankgod we got some wicked spare seats, fate or what!).

All I can say is PEOPLE WATCH THE T.V. on 18th

I remember Chrissie, kept kissing Paul on the cheek, she is in love with the guy, not like in a funny way, it was obviuos she loved him and Linda, and looked so proud of him when he decided he could perform. After all it was her that organised it for Linda.

I was so distressed I can't remeber all of it, so thank god its gonna be showed, otherwise i'd be upset even more.

It was like I was drunk and on drugs at the same time, I will never get over this, I can't believe how one man can change me so much.

Right, I'm calmed a bit better now, but its like...everything i've done, and do from now on is incignicant now, he is colossal. I just wanted to jump on stage, I could have done aswell - he was that near!

Oh by the way, I waited at the celeb entrance, and met Eddie Izzard, i've always thought he's fab, really down to earth, but I couldn't believe it when I turned round and he was walking in normal, like any bloke.

emm, oh yeah, Paul didn't look his usual self, coming out, in his car. I know he was upset when speaking to the audience, that was obvious, but then he really did look upset, when waving to us in his car.

Normally i've seen and heard, he smiles winks, peace signs, says things. But he had tears in his eyes, and worried sort of look, and just meekly hung his head down in the car, waving at the crowd.

I'd better go now, but i'm not going to have a normal life after this. I really can't.

He looked at me, smiled at me!!!! sigh, calm down girl.

Its so different seeing him on t.v. or pictures, live is the ultimate dieing of my emotions. My body still hasn't got over it. I normally never cry at anything, I just can't.

But I broke down many times, and still do.

I never thought i'd see him live, and sing! f***ing heart wrenching songs.

I'm going to die happy.

Patrice