by kapoo » Fri Sep 17, 2004 3:00 pm
IMHO, Kurt had issues with himself and pretty much the entire world around him. Gastro, Kurt came from one of the shXttiest upbringings a white kid in America can come from. An abusive dad who made fun of him, homeless at age 16 because he ran away, into drugs at an early age (an I'm not talking about weed..), never fit in at school to the point he stopped going... blah blah blah. But it's not like he had this great life you're talking about. He happened to be a talented musician, and that catapulted this man, who was otherwise completely unhappy and at odds with the world his whole life, into the world spotlight. And worst of all for him as he said, his fans were mostly the same "jock type people" who beat the crap out of him earlier in life (those are his words, not mine). So it's unfortunate that all of that, coupled with drug problems, depression and physical and mental illness could drive him to the point of suicide. But it did. So you should try to learn from him and understand that this type of shXt happens. You can't write him off as a loser just because he should have been happy with all the money he had. FXck $ sometimes. There are more important things like self respect and the support of friends and family. I mean, Kurt's only supporters were people he didn't know.
ps.- Kurt did say that Paul imberrassed him. But he was probably just coming off a 3 month H bender.... I think he looked at Paul as a real sell out, sort of a BackStreet Boy of the 60's. Which isn't true, but like it or not, Paul gets that rap sometimes. Songs like Honey Pie didn't help his cause... (I like honey Pie...)