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Pattie Boyd: 'My hellish love triangle with George and Eric'

Postby I am the Paulrus » Tue Aug 21, 2007 9:34 pm

Pattie Boyd: 'My hellish love triangle with George and Eric'

6th August 2007

The Daily Mail

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/f ... ge_id=1879

George Harrison wrote the love song Something for his wife Pattie Boyd. Eric Clapton wrote Layla for her. Theirs was the most extraordinary love triangle in rock history.

Now, after four decades of silence, the woman who drove two music legends wild tells the raw, unexpurgated story of her life...


We met secretly at a flat in South Kensington. Eric Clapton had asked me to come because he wanted me to listen to a new number he had written.


He switched on the tape machine, turned up the volume and played me the most powerful, moving song I had ever heard. It was Layla, about a man who falls hopelessly in love with a woman who loves him but is unavailable.


He played it to me two or three times, all the while watching my face intently for my reaction. My first thought was: 'Oh God, everyone's going to know this is about me.'

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High minds: George and Pattie pictured shortly before they broke up

I was married to Eric's close friend, George Harrison, but Eric had been making his desire for me clear for months. I felt uncomfortable that he was pushing me in a direction in which I wasn't certain I wanted to go.

But with the realisation that I had inspired such passion and creativity, the song got the better of me. I could resist no longer.


That evening I was going to the theatre to see Oh! Calcutta! with a friend and then on to a party at the home of pop impresario Robert Stigwood. George didn't want to go to the show or the party.


After the interval at Oh!Calcutta! I came back to find Eric in the next seat, having persuaded a stranger to swap places with him. Afterwards we went to Robert's house separately but we were soon together. It was a great party and I felt elated by what had happened earlier in the day but also deeply guilty.


During the early hours, George appeared. He was morose and his mood was not improved by walking into a party that had been going on for several hours and where most of the guests were high on drugs.


He kept asking 'Where's Pattie?' but no one seemed to know. He was about to leave when he spotted me in the garden with Eric. It was just getting light, and very misty. George came over and demanded: 'What's going on?' To my horror, Eric said: 'I have to tell you, man, that I'm in love with your wife.'

I wanted to die. George was furious. He turned to me and said: 'Well, are you going with him or coming with me?'


I had met George six years previously, in 1964, when he was filming A Hard Day's Night. Britain and most of Europe was in the grip of Beatlemania.


John Lennon, Paul McCartney, George Harrison and Ringo Starr were mobbed everywhere they went, and at their concerts thousands of hysterical teenagers cried and screamed so loudly that no one could hear the music.


Shortly before they started shooting A Hard Day's Night, The Beatles took America by storm. In February 1964 they appeared on The Ed Sullivan Show, one of America's most prestigious programmes, and attracted an audience of 73million.


I was a model, working with some of the most successful photographers in London, including David Bailey and Terence Donovan. I was appearing in newspapers and magazines such as Vanity Fair and Vogue, but in March my agent sent me along to a casting session for a film.


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She called later to tell me I had been offered the part of a schoolgirl fan in a Beatles film. On first impressions, John seemed more cynical and brash than the others, Ringo the most endearing, Paul was cute and George, with velvet-brown eyes and dark chestnut hair, was the best-looking man I had ever seen. At a break for lunch I found myself sitting next to him. Being close to him was electrifying.

Almost the first thing he said to me was: 'Will you marry me?' He was joking but there was a hint of seriousness. We got together soon after that and married two years later on January 21, 1966. I was 21, he was 22. I was so happy and so much in love. I thought we would be together and happy for ever.

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Honeymoon: Pattie and George in Barbados

Three years later, in 1969, George wrote a song called Something. He told me in a matter-of-fact way that he had written it for me. I thought it was beautiful and it turned out to be the most successful song he ever wrote, with more than 150 cover versions.
Frank Sinatra said he thought it was the best love song ever written. George's favourite version was the one by James Brown. Mine was the one by George Harrison, which he played to me in our kitchen.

But, in fact, by then our relationship was in trouble. Since a trip to the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi's ashram in India in 1968, George had become obsessive about meditation. He was also sometimes withdrawn and depressed.

My moods started to mirror his and at times I felt almost suicidal. I don't think I was ever in any real danger of killing myself but I got as far as working out how I would do it: put on a diaphanous Ossie Clark dress and throw myself off Beachy Head.

And there were other women, which really hurt me. George was fascinated by the god Krishna who was always surrounded by young maidens. He came back from India wanting to be some kind of Krishna figure, a spiritual being with lots of concubines. He actually said so.

No woman was out of bounds. I was friendly with a French girl who was going out with Eric Clapton. When she and Eric broke up, she came to stay with us at our house, Kinfauns, in Esher, Surrey.

She didn't seem remotely upset about Eric and was uncomfortably close to George. Something was going on between them but when I questioned George he told me my imagination was running away with me, that I was paranoid.

I left to stay with friends and within days George phoned to say the girl had gone. I returned home but I was shocked that he could do such a thing to me. I felt unloved and miserable.

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Chilled: George relaxes in India in 1968

It was around this time that Eric began to come over to our house. He and George had become close friends, writing and recording music together.
Eric's guitar playing was held in awe by his fellow musicians. Graffiti declaring 'Clapton is God' had been scrawled on the London Underground, and he was an incredibly exciting performer to watch. He looked wonderful on stage, very sexy.

But when I met him he didn't behave like a rock star – he was surprisingly shy and reticent. I was aware that Eric found me attractive and I enjoyed the attention he paid me.

It was hard not to be flattered when I caught him staring at me or when he chose to sit beside me. He complimented me on what I was wearing and the food I had cooked, and he said things he knew would make me laugh. Those were all things that George no longer did.


One night in December 1969 I took my 17-year-old sister Paula to see Eric play in Liverpool. Paula was very pretty and a bit of a wild child, and that night Eric fell for her. After the show we all went to a restaurant and everyone was quite drunk and raucous. When the rest of us went back to the hotel, we left Eric and Paula dancing.

The next night Eric was playing in Croydon and again Paula and I went to watch, and again there was a wild after-show party, this time at Eric's Italianate manor house, Hurtwood Edge in Ewhurst, Surrey. Soon after, Paula moved in with Eric.

In March 1970, George and I moved into a new house. Friar Park was a magnificent Victorian Gothic pile near Henley-on-Thames, Oxfordshire, with 25 bedrooms, a ballroom, a library, a formal garden of 12 acres and a further 20 acres of land.

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Relaxed: Eric drinks in the garden of Pattie and George's Friar Park home

One morning shortly after moving in, a letter arrived for me with the words 'express' and 'urgent' written on the envelope. Inside I found a small piece of paper. In small, immaculate writing, with no capital letters, I read: 'dearest l,'as you have probably gathered, my own home affairs are a galloping farce, which is rapidly degenerating day by intolerable day . . . it seems like an eternity since i last saw or spoke to you!'

He needed to ascertain my feelings: id I still love my husband or did I have another lover? More crucially, did I still have feelings in my heart for him? He had to know, and urged me to write. 'please do this, whatever it may say, my mind will be at rest . . .'all my love, e.'

I assumed it was from some weirdo.

I got fan mail occasionally – when I wasn't getting hate mail from George's fans. I showed it to George and others who were at the house. They laughed and dismissed it, as I had.

That evening the phone rang. It was Eric. 'Did you get my letter?' he asked.
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'Letter?' I said. 'I don't think so. What letter are you talking about?'

Then the penny dropped. 'Was that from you? I had no idea you felt that way.' It was the most passionate letter anyone had ever written to me and it put our relationship on a different footing. It made the flirtation all the more exciting and dangerous. But as far as I was concerned, it was just flirtation.

From time to time during the spring and summer of 1970, Eric and I saw each other. One day, walking down Oxford Street, he asked: 'Do you like me, then, or are you seeing me because I'm famous?'

'Oh, I thought you were seeing me because I'm famous,' I said. We laughed.

He always found it difficult to talk about his feelings, instead pouring them into his music and writing.

Once we met under the clock in Guildford High Street. He had just come back from Miami and had a pair of bell-bottom trousers for me – hence the track Bell Bottom Blues. He was tanned and looked gorgeous and irresistible – but I managed to resist him.

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Dream girl: Pattie modelling in 1964

On another occasion I drove to Ewhurst and we met in the woods nearby. Eric was wearing a wolf coat and looked very sexy. We didn't go to his house because someone would have been there. A lot of people lived at Hurtwood Edge: his band, the Dominos, Paula and Alice Ormsby-Gore, another of Eric's girlfriends.

The convent girl in me found the situation uncomfortable but strangely exciting, and so it was later that year after Eric had played me Layla in the South Kensington flat that I succumbed to his advances.

After George and Eric's confrontation at Robert Stigwood's party, I went home with my husband. Back at the house I went to bed and George disappeared into his recording studio.

The next time I saw Eric, he turned up unexpectedly at Friar Park. George was away – I don't know whether Eric knew that in advance – and I was on my own. He said he wanted me to go away with him: he was desperately in love with me and couldn't live without me. I had to leave George right now and be with him.

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Happy days: Pattie's own photo of Paul, Ringo and John in 1968

'Eric, are you mad?' I asked. 'I can't possibly. I'm married to George.'

He said: 'No, no, no. I love you. I have to have you in my life.'

'No,' I said.

He produced a small packet from his pocket and held it out towards me.

'Well, if you're not going to come away with me, I'm going to take this.'

'What is it?'

'Heroin.'

'Don't be so stupid.' I tried to grab it from him but he clenched his fist and hid it in his pocket.

'If you're not going to come with me,' he said, 'that's it. I'm off.'

And he went. I hardly saw him for three years.

He did as he threatened. He took the heroin and quickly became addicted. And he took Alice Ormsby-Gore with him.

Eric already did a lot of drugs, the ones we all used – marijuana, uppers, downers and cocaine – and he drank quite heavily too. But his dealer had been insisting recently he bought heroin when he supplied him with cocaine.

Eric had been using it infrequently for about a year and had amassed a big pile. He now set about using it. He and Alice retreated into Hurtwood Edge and pulled up the drawbridge. He didn't leave the house, he didn't see friends, he didn't answer the door or the telephone, and the two of them sank into virtual oblivion.

By this time Paula had gone. She had been with Eric in Miami when he was recording Layla and knew instantly it was about me. She had always had a suspicion he was with her only because she was the next best thing to me and I was unobtainable. Hearing Layla confirmed it.

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Love rivals: (Left to right) Eric and George

She had been seriously in love with Eric, but he destroyed her pride, her self-esteem and her confidence, which were already fragile.

On top of that, her big sister was the last person to whom she could turn for comfort. I tried to telephone Eric but Alice always answered, so I hung up.

I turned my attention to my husband and to renovating Friar Park. For a brief period the project united us but the house was so enormous, and there were always so many people living in it, that we never had any intimacy. Most of the time, even when George was in the house, I didn't know where he was.

At meal times, too many other people were at the table for us to have any real conversation. And even though we shared a bed, he was often in his recording studio or meditating half the night in the octagonal room at the top of the house that had become his sanctuary.

I felt more and more alienated. I didn't feel included in George's thinking or his plans. I wasn't his partner in anything any longer. He was surrounded by yes-men. When I challenged him about it he said: 'Well I'd hate to be surrounded by no-men.'

I heard from Eric again in January 1971, two months after he had walked out vowing to take the heroin. He wrote to me from a cottage in Wales.

On the title page of a copy of Steinbeck's Of Mice And Men, he had written: 'dear layla, for nothing more than the pleasures past i would sacrifice my family, my god, and my own existence, and still you will not move. i am at the end of my mind, i cannot go back and there is nothing in tomorrow (save you) that can attract me beyond today. i have listened to the wind, i have watched the dark brooding clouds, i have felt the earth beneath me for a sign, a gesture, but there is only silence. why do you hesitate, am i a poor lover, am i ugly, am i too weak, too strong, do you know why? if you want me, take me, i am yours . . . 'if you don't want me, please break the spell that binds me. 'to cage a wild animal is a sin, to tame him is divine. 'my love is yours.'

It was signed with a heart. That one short note stirred up feelings I had spent two months suppressing. I wrote and told him what he wanted to hear.

'How are you? I hope the Welsh air has been soothing your mind and warming your heart. Oh, I so long to spend some time with you there . . . it would be beautiful to be together, just for a while.

'If the stars should suddenly change their course and I can come to Wales I'll send a telegram. Please take care of yourself. 'Moons full of love 'L'

As soon as I had posted the letter I had terrible doubts and immediately wrote a postcard. It simply said: 'Hullo, Please forgive and forget my bold suggestion.'Love L'

His reply came by return of post on the dust jacket of a book of Scottish ballads and was written in green ink.

'it was rather significant that i received both communications on the same morning. something like watching a boomerang in flight.'

He said he understood my situation and didn't know what to recommend.

'i love you even though you're chicken.'

Nothing came of our fantasies and I didn't see or speak to him again until August 1971. George had persuaded him to come out of Hurtwood Edge briefly to perform at a charity event, Concert For Bangladesh, in New York.

Eric was in a bad way but George thought that if he got him on stage, even propped up with drugs, his addiction would become an open secret and maybe he would open the door a little to his friends, who might be able to help.

Everyone knew that if Eric was to have a chance of getting through two performances – one in the afternoon and another that evening – he would need a supply of heroin when he arrived in New York.

I remember discussions about finding a really good one, called White Elephant, for him. It had to be very pure because he never injected – he was terrified of needles – but snorted it instead, as if it was cocaine, from a gold spoon he wore round his neck. Alice found it – she always did the scoring.

While they were living at Hurtwood Edge, she went to London to do the sordid business of getting supplies while Eric stayed at home. If ever they ran short, she would give him her share and take something else. She was drinking at least two bottles of vodka a day so he could have the heroin.

That day he and I scarcely spoke. He was surrounded by people, then on stage, and he was very out of it; I'm not sure he really saw me. It was a shock to think that he had done this to himself because of me. At first I felt guilty, then my feelings would swing violently the other way and I was angry that he should have asked me to choose between him and my husband.

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Still standing: Pattie Boyd as she is today

When the concert was over, Eric and Alice went back to the horrors of their self-imposed prison at Hurtwood Edge. Pete Townshend of The Who was the only friend who refused to take no for an answer and went to the house so often that eventually Eric had to see him.
Pete persuaded him to perform at another charity concert, this time at Finsbury Park, North London.

The show in 1973, billed as Eric's comeback, was a triumph. I was sitting in the audience with George, Ringo, Elton John, Joe Cocker and Jimmy Page. Eric didn't look well – his addict's diet of junk food and chocolate had made him put on weight.

As I heard the opening wail of Layla, the first number of the evening, then the lyrics, my blood ran cold. He might have been wrecked for the previous three years but he hadn't forgotten how to tear at the heart-strings with his guitar.

All the emotion I had felt for him when he disappeared from my life welled up inside me.

The show reminded Eric there was an alternative to his life as an addict and eventually he agreed to accept treatment. He got off the heroin – and went straight on to alcohol.

He became a regular visitor to Friar Park and professed his love for me with increasing vigour. Letters arrived almost daily in which he pleaded with me to leave George and be with him.

Meanwhile, things between George and me were going from bad to worse. I don't know what his feelings were about Eric when he reappeared in our lives.

We had been so stoned on the night of Robert Stigwood's party that he might have forgotten about the confrontation in the mist, but I don't think so. George never spoke about it but after that night I think he felt he could be as blatant as he liked in his pursuit of other women.

In spring 1973 we were supposed to go on holiday together. The day before we were due to leave, George said he wasn't feeling well and couldn't go. He ended up going to Spain, supposedly to see Salvador Dali, with Ronnie Wood's wife, Krissie.

Ronnie, then bass guitarist with The Faces, and Krissie were friends of ours who often came to stay at Friar Park. I was desperately hurt: another of my friends was sleeping with George.

When I challenged him he denied it.

I went to the Bahamas instead with my sister Paula, who was battling her own heroin addiction. While there we had a call from Ronnie Wood. He was on tour and said he might come to see us for a few days. He didn't seem upset that his wife was with George – he just thought it was funny they had gone to see Dali.

Ronnie is the most adorable man, and maybe at that moment some fun, laughter and a pair of comforting arms were what I needed.

The final straw for George and me was his affair with Ringo's wife, Maureen. She was the last person I would have expected to stab me in the back.

I discovered from some photos that she had been staying in the house with George while I had visited my mother in Devon. He had given her a beautiful necklace, which she wore in front of me.

Then I found them locked in a bedroom at Friar Park. I stood outside banging on the door yelling: 'What are you doing? Maureen's in there, isn't she? I know she is!' George just laughed.

Eventually he opened the door and said: 'Oh, she's just a bit tired so she's lying down.'

I went straight to the top of the house and lowered the flag bearing the om symbol that George had been flying from the roof and hoisted a skull and crossbones instead. That made me feel much better.

Maureen wasn't even prepared to be subtle. She would turn up at Friar Park at midnight and I would say: 'What the hell are you doing here?' 'I've come to listen to George playing in the studio.' 'Well, I'm going to bed.' 'Ah, well, I'm going to the studio.'

The next morning, she'd still be there, and I'd say: 'Have you thought about your children? What are you up to? I don't like it.'

'Tough,' was her response.

Ringo didn't have a clue what was going on until I rang him one day and said: 'Have you ever thought about why your wife doesn't come home at night? It's because she's here!' He flew into a rage.

George continued to pretend that nothing was going on and would leave me feeling as though I was becoming paranoid.

I felt undermined and unloved and George was so terribly difficult to talk to. He had become worse in the last year, maybe because Eric kept coming around and making it obvious that he wanted to see me. George must have sensed we were having an affair but he never said so.

One evening the actor John Hurt was with us. Eric was due to come over too and George decided to have it out with him. John wanted to make himself scarce but George insisted he stay.

John remembers George coming downstairs with two guitars and two small amplifiers, laying them down in the hall, then pacing restlessly until Eric arrived – full of brandy, as usual.

As Eric walked through the door George handed him a guitar and amp – as an 18th Century gentleman might have handed his rival a sword – and for two hours, without a word, they duelled. The air was electric and the music exciting.

At the end, nothing was said but the general feeling was that Eric had won. He hadn't allowed himself to get riled or to go in for instrumental gymnastics as George had. Even when he was drunk, his guitar-playing was unbeatable.

That whole period was insane. Friar Park was a madhouse. Our lives were fuelled by alcohol and cocaine, and so it was with everyone who came into our sphere. We were all as drunk, stoned and single-minded as each other. Nobody seemed to have appointments, deadlines or anything pressing in their lives, no structure and no responsibilities.

Cocaine is a seductive drug because it makes you feel euphoric and good about yourself. It takes away your inhibitions and makes even the shyest, most insecure person feel confident.

And we had so much energy – everyone would talk nonsense for twice as long and drink twice as much because the cocaine made us feel sober. George used cocaine excessively and I think it changed him.

Marijuana wasn't destructive. Dope in the Sixties – a very different drug from the skunk kids smoke today – was about peace, love and increasing awareness. Cocaine was different and I think it froze George's emotions and hardened his heart.

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On New Year's Eve in 1973, Ringo held a party at his home. George went ahead of me and when I arrived he said: 'Let's have a divorce this year.'

In 1974 George told Ringo that he was in love with his wife. Ringo worked himself up into a terrible state and went about saying: 'Nothing is real, nothing is real.'

I was furious. I went straight out and dyed my hair red.

In June that year, I returned home one evening to find Eric, Pete Townshend and Graham Bell, another musician, larking around at our house.

I made them dinner, which we ate amid forced jollity, then Eric took me aside and pleaded with me again to leave George. We were alone together for what felt like hours, and he was so passionate, desperate and compelling that I felt swamped, lost and confused.

I had to make a choice. Would I go to Eric, who had written the most beautiful song for me, who had been to hell and back in the last three years because of me and who had worn me down with his protestations of love?

Or would I choose George, my husband, whom I had loved but who had been cold and indifferent towards me for so long that I could barely remember the last time he'd shown me any affection or told me he loved me?

That night Eric left and went off almost immediately to America on tour. On July 3 I told George I was leaving him. It was late at night and I went into the studio and explained that we were leading a ludicrous and hateful life, and that I was going to America. When he came to bed, I could feel his sadness as he lay beside me. 'Don't go,' he said.

Half of me wanted to stay and to believe him when he said he would make it better, but I was at the end of my tether.

The next day, with a great sadness in my heart, I packed some things, said a tearful goodbye to Friar Park and flew to America. What I had felt for George was a great, deep love. What Eric and I had was an intoxicating, overpowering passion.

It was so intense, so urgent, so heady, I felt almost out of control. Having made the decision to leave my marriage, I knew I had to be with him, go everywhere with him, do everything he did, keep up with him in every way. Which, on that tour of America in 1974, meant drinking.

Wonderful Today, by Pattie Boyd with Penny Junor, is published by Headline Review.
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Pattie Boyd: George had to ask Brian Epstein for permission to marry me

5th August 2007

The Daily Mail

On my first date with George we went to the Garrick Club in Covent Garden.

Brian Epstein, The Beatles' charismatic manager, came with us. He was slightly older, better educated and more worldly wise than John, Paul, George and Ringo.

He was also much more to them than a manager: he had discovered them in Liverpool, shaped them and harnessed their talent, but he had also become a father figure and kept a close eye on everything they did.

I didn't resent his presence on our first date – he was good company and seemed to know everything about wine, food and restaurants.

And perhaps if George and I, two young, shy people, had been on our own in such a grown-up restaurant, it would have been too intense.

As it was, we had a lovely evening and sat side by side on a banquette listening to Brian, hardly daring to touch each other's hand.

One evening in December 1965, George and I were driving through London when he said: 'Let's get married. I'll speak to Brian.'

He stopped the car outside Brian's house in Chapel Street, Belgravia, and rushed inside, leaving me in the car. He came back 15 minutes later and said: 'Brian says it's OK. Will you marry me? We can get married in January.'

'Oh, yes,' I said. 'That would be fabulous!' I was thrilled – but George had had to ask Brian's permission in case a Beatles tour was planned.

One of the best holidays George and I had was spent with Brian at his favourite place in the South of France, the Hotel Cap Estrelle near Eze. Brian took us to fantastic restaurants and to the casino in Monte Carlo, which was terribly glamorous.

Everyone dressed up – the women in cocktail dresses and the men in dinner jackets – and a huge amount of money changed hands. Brian looked very debonair and was also a successful gambler. He made everything possible for us; everything glorious.

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Brian Epstein (second from right) with The Beatles. George asked Epstein for permission to marry Pattie

When The Beatles went to Bangor to meet the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi in August 1967, it was the first time they had gone anywhere without Brian being in charge. Brian had seemed interested in what Maharishi had to offer, but it was a Bank Holiday weekend and he was committed to spending it with friends. We were like children allowed into the park without their nanny. John said it was 'like going somewhere without your trousers on'.

It was while we were in Bangor that we received a telephone call telling us Brian, who was just 32, had died from a sleeping-pill overdose. It was the most dreadful moment. Paul and George were in shock: Brian was their friend, their enabler, their hero. He was irreplaceable.

We knew at that moment that life would never be the same again. After Brian's death The Beatles were like orphans, and that was when underlying tensions and resentments began to surface.
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Patti Boyd: The dentist who spiked my coffee with LSD

5th August 2007

The Daily Mail

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/a ... ge_id=1773

Drugs were a part of our lives in the Sixties. The Beatles had been introduced to marijuana by Bob Dylan during an American tour. We also took downers and uppers.

Whenever John Lennon visited George and me at our home in Esher, our cleaner, Margaret, would say to him 'Have you got any of those lovely pills?' and John would give her an upper. Afterwards she would vacuum like a maniac.

None of us used heroin but we took acid – LSD – regularly. Our dentist, John Riley, had turned us on to it.

He and his girlfriend invited John, his wife Cynthia, George and me to dinner at his house in Hyde Park Square one evening in 1965. We knew him quite well and had been to a few clubs with him in the past. The four of us drove to London in my little Mini Cooper S.

We had a lovely meal and as we prepared to leave – we were due to watch some friends playing at a club – Riley's girlfriend jumped to her feet and said: 'You haven't had any coffee yet. It's ready, I've made it – and it's delicious.'

We drank the coffee but by then we were really keen to get away. John said: 'We must go now. Our friends are going to be on soon. It's their first night.'

Riley told him: 'You can't leave.'

'What are you talking about?' asked John.

'You've just had LSD. It was in the coffee.'

John was absolutely furious. 'How dare you f****** do this to us,' he said. George and I said: 'Do what?' We didn't know what LSD was.

John said: 'It's a drug.' As it began to take effect we felt even more strongly that we didn't want to be there.

We were desperate to escape. Riley said he would drive us but we ignored him and piled into my Mini, which seemed to be shrinking. All the way to the club the car felt smaller and smaller, and by the time we arrived we were completely out of it.

People kept recognising George and coming up to him. They were moving in and out of focus, and looked like animals. We clung to each other.

Soon we moved on to a different club which we knew – we thought we might feel better in familiar surroundings. We walked to the venue and I remember trying to break a window on the way.

The club was on an upper floor and we thought the lift was on fire because there was a little red light inside. As the doors opened, we crawled out and bumped into Mick Jagger, Marianne Faithfull and Ringo.

John told them we'd been spiked. The effect of the drug was getting stronger and stronger, and we were all in hysterics.

When we sat down, the table elongated. Hours later we decided to go home. We climbed into the car again and this time George drove – at no more than 10mph all the way to Esher – but it felt as though he was doing 1,000mph.

At one point, I saw some goalposts and said: 'Let's jump out and play football.'

The journey took hours and it was daylight by the time we got home. We locked the gates so that the cleaner wouldn't come in and find us. The drug took about eight hours to wear off, but it was very frightening and we never spoke to the dentist again.
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Re: Pattie Boyd: 'My hellish love triangle with George and Eric'

Postby I am the Paulrus » Tue Aug 21, 2007 10:25 pm

Pattie Boyd: Life after George Harrison and Eric Clapton

18th August 2007

By LIZ JONES, The Daily Mail

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'I clung on to my marriages thinking they would get better'

Pattie Boyd was the much-envied swinging 60s model who married George Harrison and Eric Clapton.

But living the rock wife highlife was fraught with heartbreak and insecurity, as her new autobiography reveals. Here she tells Liz Jones why she's so much happier today.

There are so many wonderful stories in Pattie Boyd's life. Going to the cinema with Elvis.

Hanging out with Sinatra.

Watching Princess Margaret being handed a joint.

Being model scouted while working on an Elizabeth Arden beauty counter and then photographed by David Bailey.

Falling in love with a Beatle. Falling in love with another famous rock star, Eric Clapton, and being serenaded with 'Wonderful Tonight', the song he wrote while watching her get ready for a party.

Pattie's ever-present diary was full of entries like, 'Took George home to meet family in E-type Jag…' 'Went to Ireland with John and Cynthia.'

But there is much that is excruciating in her life story – which she has expanded from the diaries into a book, Wonderful Today – that you wonder whether the painful outweighed the magical.

That she might have been happier had she not met George Harrison on the set of A Hard Day's Night; had she not got caught up in all the drugs and the mansions and men who behaved like little boys.

When I say this she does her big laugh. 'They were like little boys!' she shouts. 'They should have been wearing short grey trousers!'

We are due to meet in a hotel in Notting Hill, and when a tiny woman with a nest of blond hair, big breasts and skinny legs in jeans and high-heeled boots brushes past me on the stairs, I know instantly it's Pattie.

She still has that startling face made famous in a Smith's Crisps TV ad: the very blue, round, innocent eyes, the slightly prominent teeth.

When I tell her she looks exactly the same she laughs, and puts it down to the fact she has never had plastic surgery.

She had come up to London the night before from her cottage in Sussex to stay with a girlfriend; she is worried the rabbits will be eating her sunflowers and can't wait to get home.

She has lots of female friends now, she says, and no man in her life.

A better state of affairs than having a cheating man to worry about, and no female friends because she's afraid they'll steal him?

'I learned to distinguish predatory women from ordinary ones. I did occasionally get the predatory ones out of the way but I had to be on the lookout all the time. It was exhausting!'

I ask why she has chosen to publish her autobiography now, at the age of 63.

'I've always thought I was a very private person, and then my sister-in-law said, 'Pattie, have you Googled your name?' 'I was amazed that there was all this information about me; obviously not all of it correct.

'But I'd always felt that until I'd made a success of something of my own, I shouldn't do a book.

'Now that I've had two photographic exhibitions [including portraits of famous friends and landscapes from her travels] in San Francisco that were very well received, I feel the timing is right.

'People say it's cathartic to write a book, but it turned out to be quite painful!'


Although her first husband, George Harrison, died of cancer in 2001, her second, Eric Clapton, formerly of the Yardbirds and Cream, is still very much alive, and

I wonder what he thinks of his portrayal in her book, which is far from flattering.

'I'm not worried about him reading it – should I be?' she asks, looking worried.

'I asked if I could publish his letters and he said yes.

'But what's odd is that he didn't want to know which letters I wanted to use…but he writes beautifully, he's obviously confident about what he's written.'

Goodness. The letters.

Never was a woman so relentlessly pursued and then so cruelly cast aside...

Pattie Boyd was born on 17 March 1944, and spent her early childhood in West Lothian.

Pattie's mother, Diana, was born in India; her father, Jock, was badly burned in the RAF, which prematurely ended his career, and the family moved to Kenya when Pattie was four to join her maternal grandparents.

She loved Kenya, but always felt very distant from her mother. When she was sent to boarding school in Nakuru aged eight, she knew 'something bad was happening at home'.

It turned out her mother was having an affair, and she soon returned to England, leaving Pattie, two of her siblings and her father in Africa.

Pattie describes her father as 'always behind a newspaper. He was awkward, distant' (and unfaithful) – precisely the type of man she was to end up marrying, twice.

A year later, in 1953, her mother sent for her children; Pattie wouldn't see her father again for three decades.

Again, she was packed off to boarding school. She says that as a child she felt 'rejected and abandoned'.

Her deepest fear is of being abandoned again.

She likes to cling on, though: 'I am a very positive person, and I clung on in my marriages thinking, “I'm sure it will get better!"

Her parents are still alive.

What does her mother think of the book?

'She was sad that I'd had an unhappy childhood, but I told her, 'Mummy, I'm hardly suffering now. Look at me – I'm fine.'

I'm blessed with the fact that I'm a fighter. I've always known life was meant to be joyful.'

Despite gracing the cover of Vogue numerous times, and having three of arguably the greatest love songs ever written for her (before 'Wonderful Tonight', Clapton had penned 'Layla', a paen to his unrequited love for her, and she inspired George to write the Beatles' 'Something'), Pattie has never felt remotely lovable.

'I was terribly self-critical,' she says.

'I think modelling is a very difficult thing. It's glamorous and fun, but underneath it all, you know your flaws and those are what you focus on.'

Like so many women, she blames herself for both of her husbands' infidelities.

Perhaps because her father and stepfather had affairs she didn't expect anything better?

Repeatedly, in her book and during our conversation, she berates herself for not being more patient.

I suggest that the men she married were so infantile they shoved her into a sort of mummy role.

'I don't know whether the mummy role was inherent because I was the eldest of six or because I never had children,' she says.

Although both George and Eric were hugely talented, I wonder whether either was worth the bother.

George spent most of his time smoking marijuana, meditating or playing his guitar.

Eric cheated on Pattie almost before the ink dried on their wedding certificate.

The sex can't have been that great, either, I say: Eric was a drug addict, then an alcoholic.

But she will only say tactfully, 'It could be so annoying!'

Pattie and George were married on 21 January 1966. She was 21, he was 22. She wore a Mary Quant dress and fur coat.

Her father didn't come to the wedding. They moved into a modest 60s house in Esher, Surrey, and spent their time smoking joints rolled by Bob Dylan and sitting on furniture from a trendy new store called Habitat.

Everything was fine.

It was when they moved to Friar Park, a mansion near Henley-on-Thames, that the problems started.

The house, soon stuffed with antiques, became a constant reminder to George of how far he had strayed from his roots; he felt he didn't deserve it.

And the house was so big Pattie could never keep tabs on him. She says that George 'hated the touring, the fame; he was frightened of the fans, he never got any peace; he became withdrawn, depressed'.

She says he always felt excluded artistically from the Beatles, and his moods weren't helped when their manager Brian Epstein died; she says he felt like an orphan.

It was through Pattie, who loved to travel, that, in 1968, George met the Maharishi, furthering an interest in the East that had begun a couple of years earlier when George met sitar master Ravi Shankar.

George became a vegetarian, and meditated for hours every day. I venture that he was a hypocrite: he'd seek enlightenment, but he also took cocaine. 'Drugs hardened his heart,' she admits.

Pattie would arrive home to find him with other women; they seemed to teem around the house like woodlice.

'Because of my fragile ego, I saw it as betrayal,' she says.

'I would look at all these girls and think, “Oh my God, they're all so beautiful.'''

I tell her, but it was betrayal!

Why did you put up with it?

And she just shrugs. Like most insecure men, George was jealous of her fame, and to appease him she pretty much gave up modelling.

'Without a job and without actually doing anything except look after somebody, it lessens your value.

'George didn't want me to be famous; he just wanted me to be quiet at home. And so that's when I started taking pictures.

I wanted to do something.'

While she and George were growing further apart, Eric Clapton was sending 'the most passionate letters anyone had ever written to me'.

Wanting to save her marriage, she rejected him, and in turn he threatened to take the heroin he had in his hand.

'He said, “That's it, I'm off.”'

She hardly saw him for three years. And he was true to his word: he became addicted to heroin, almost taking his then girlfriend, Paula, Pattie's younger sister ('he wanted the closest thing to me') down with him.

Did she blame herself?

'No, it was his choice. It was appalling!'

Neither does she blame herself for the path chosen by Paula, whom she has helped many times over the years and who is waiting to go into rehab.

'I wasn't deliberately taking her into a rock'n'roll world. She knew all the Beatles, they [her siblings] all did.'

But as George continued the chanting and the affairs, Pattie finally gave in to Eric, and in 1973 left George to join him on tour.

Does she think things might have been different if she had had a child with George?

'Well, there would have been a point of reference for both of you that would be lifelong,' she says sadly.

Her new life with Eric, in yet another mansion, took on an eerily familiar pattern.

She subjugated her life to his: to keep up with him she took marijuana, uppers, downers, cocaine, even heroin, and became an alcoholic as she tried to keep up with his drinking.

Her family had loved George but they hated Eric, who had no social graces: 'He'd get up in the middle of dinner and just walk off,' she recalls. He could also be cruel.

Once, she found him at home with someone called Jenny, and he said, 'I'm in love with this girl. Just f*** off.'

On another occasion, she took delivery of a brand new Ferrari and as a surprise went to pick him up at the airport.

He was so disgusted she had driven it before him that he immediately sold it. He was awful, I tell Pattie, and she laughs.

But she is still so forgiving when she says, 'For a musician to come home and be as wonderful a person as they are on stage is impossible.

'It's ludicrous to expect them to be as fabulous a human being in day-to-day life.' Both men were extravagant (George once littered his drive with rubies instead of gravel), but Pattie was so ashamed at not being able to have children that, upon divorcing them, she walked away with almost nothing.

From George, she took £120,000 and a Mercedes.

She wrote to Eric, asking him to buy her a house in the country; he refused.

Only much later did he sign over a cottage in her name. I ask whether she would have found a nice, normal man who adored her far too boring.

'I would! I realise I like difficult men! I like something to battle with.

If somebody is too easy and adores me, I might crush them, which would be cruel.'

In 1985, soon after Eric Clapton had played at the first Live Aid concert, he met Lori del Santo, an actress.

He told Pattie he had fallen in love. Is that what made it different? She put up with his groupies?

'Yes.' But not when he said he was in love with someone else?

'No, that's different. I think boys play, they are silly boys, but if they fall…if there's an emotional attachment – that's very different.'

Yet she still clung on to their marriage, even after Lori gave birth to a son, Conor, the following year.

Eric would come home to Pattie after visiting him, bursting with fatherly pride. At the time, Pattie was going through IVF. 'In a funny way, he expected me to be pleased,' she says. Does she regret not having children? 'Yes, but the thing is, I tried, so it can't be a regret, can it?'

They divorced in 1989. Two years later, Conor died when he fell from a 53rd-floor window in Manhattan.

To make matters worse, the papers dug up the story that Eric had already fathered another child, a daughter, and had been paying maintenance for the past six years.

But Pattie was there for him.

'I wrote to Eric when Conor died, and he rang me. He was very fragile. I went to the funeral with him. He asked me to.' I really admire Pattie Boyd.

She was taught by her parents that she didn't deserve to be loved; she was told by her husbands that she wasn't worth very much, but here she is: not dead, not on drugs, not an alcoholic, but a survivor.

George was the love of her life. 'We grew up spiritually together – we learned everything together – and if you do that, there's a much tighter bond.

Hopefully, you'll be friends until you die. I remember the day we met.

I thought he was so beautiful and funny,' she says. 'I do regret [not being more forgiving]; that plagued me for years.
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Re: Pattie Boyd: 'My hellish love triangle with George and Eric'

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Pattie Boyd: I burst into tears when George died. Was I right to leave him?

20th August 2007

The Daily Mail

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/femail/article.html?in_article_id=476230&in_page_id=1879

In the final part of her gripping book, Pattie Boyd recalls her struggle to adapt to life outside the world of rock 'n' roll - and how she was shattered by George Harrison's death

It was hard to go from being a rock star's wife, with someone to take care of everything, to being an ex with nothing.

Leaving Eric Clapton's Surrey manor house for a tiny rented flat in London in 1987 was a comedown, but my self-esteem was so low I didn't question it.

I had been an alcoholic's carer for so long that I had forgotten how to live for myself.

I was ignorant about the practical, everyday things that everyone else took for granted. I didn't know I had to buy a tax disc for my car, or a television licence. I didn't know about water bills or rates, and I'd never paid an electricity or telephone bill.

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Pattie Boyd, pictured today, loved George Harrison deeply, but experienced 'incredible passion' with Eric Clapton

It had been 25 years since I'd sat on a bus or found my way around the Underground, but after I was arrested for drink-driving and banned for a year I had to use public transport.

I had to ask a friend to show me how it worked: stations and ticket-buying had changed since the Sixties and I was frightened to go alone, afraid people would wonder why I was travelling on the Tube.

My confidence was shot.

Every journey was a trial. At every station enormous posters of Eric would be staring at me from the walls, up and down the escalators and along the tunnels. I would go into shops and they would be playing Eric's music and the tears would start to flow.

I felt as though I was losing my sanity.

Meeting friends for lunch, I felt as though I was in a bubble: I had nothing in common with their world of husbands and children. I could hardly speak, and if anyone spoke to me I was lost for words and the tears would come.

I thought alcohol might dull the pain, and cocaine ease the depression, but all they did was make matters worse.

I was having a breakdown.

I was grieving - not just over the loss of my marriage to Eric but finally, after all these years, the loss of my marriage to George Harrison. I had gone straight from George to Eric without taking a breath, and had always wondered whether I had done the right thing.

One day I picked up the phone and rang an old friend from my modelling days, Amanda Lear. She was Salvador Dali's muse and living in the south of France.

"Amanda, hello," I said.

"It's Pattie. I used to be Pattie Boyd." "You still are!"

"Oh - am I? I suppose I am."

The process of building myself up again, reconstructing a degree of self-esteem, was slow. I went to parties where people didn't want to talk to anyone unless they were going somewhere fast.

It was the late Eighties and the idea of someone like me saying to them with a big smile, "No, I don't do anything" was not what they wanted to hear. I felt useless, as though I had been in a dream all these years and had achieved nothing.

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Paul McCartney, Ringo Starr and George Harrison lark about not long before George died

I was friends with a property developer called Rod Weston. He had recently split from his fiancee and embarked on a series of disastrous affairs. He would chat through each one with me.

When Phil Collins invited me to the premiere of Buster in 1988, I invited Rod. He was comfortable to be with - and he was very good-looking. He came with me to many other parties, and afterwards he occasionally came back to my flat. I'd go to bed and he'd be asleep on the sofa in the morning.

Then one night, after about a year of this, when we got back to my flat

I said: "Come on, come to bed."

Almost the next day he started to move his clothes in. I didn't say anything because it was nice to have him around.

With Rod in my life I felt better about myself. He's nine years younger than I am and when he was growing up, Julie Christie and I had been his idols. I felt as though I was slowly crawling out of a dark hole and it was wonderful to feel the warming rays of the sun on my back.

But curiously, for about three or four years after Rod and I started seeing each other, I dreamt about going back to Eric. It was bizarre to have the same dream in such detail like that over so many years.

I gave up my London flat and we spent weekdays at Rod's place in Kensington and weekends at the West Sussex cottage Eric bought me in 1995.

Rod liked to drink, but his capacity didn't come anywhere near Eric's. It was social drinking - and Rod was social every day, usually at lunchtime and in the evenings.

He had a huge number of friends and between us we had more invitations than we could possibly accept, but Rod wanted to go to everything. At first it was fun. I loved going out, meeting people, but when we had done that every night of the week in London, I began to feel I'd like a rest at weekends.

Not Rod.

He wanted big lunch and supper parties. Much as I adore cooking and entertaining, by the time we went back to London I was worn out.

My relationship with him eventually ran its course.

He was getting angry with me over the slightest thing and was drinking far too much.

I once said to him: "I hate the way you get drunk. I have lived with an alcoholic. You're just like Eric."

Rod just smiled. He thought I was complimenting him.

I had grown up at last.

That was not the life I wanted any more. We argued for weeks until finally I said: "That's it. I don't want you to come to the cottage any more. We're no longer going out together."

I didn't want to cut him out of my life, just change the nature of our relationship. And it worked. We're still the best of friends.

I stayed friendly with George, too.

Indeed, the first Christmas after I'd left him, in 1974, just as Eric and I were sitting down to lunch, George burst in, uninvited. He had some wine and Christmas pudding with us. I couldn't believe how friendly he and Eric were towards each other.

The sad thing was, I realised later, he wasn't doing anything on Christmas Day and must have been lonely.

Not long afterwards he met Olivia Arias, who was to become his second wife, and from then on things were easier.

We didn't speak on the phone much, but we saw each other from time to time at parties.

He had become almost an older brother to me, someone to whom I could say anything. Every now and again he would send a little present - a tree for the garden or an ornament - and he invited Rod and me to his son Dhani's 18th birthday dinner, saying we had to be there: we were family.

One Christmas, we were at a lunch party given by Ringo and his wife Barbara.

Everyone was there, including George and Olivia, and Eric with a new girlfriend, Melia McEnery, a young, pretty American.

Eric was being unfriendly - I don't think he liked Rod, and Rod found him boring. We were at a table with Roger Taylor of Queen, and Mike Rutherford of Genesis.

I sat next to George and said: "God, George, Eric's being so weird, he can hardly say hello to me."

We had a good laugh, and when Eric and Melia were leaving, George said: "Eric, bye, man. Aren't you going to say goodbye to Pattie?"

It was as if in giving up drugs and alcohol, Eric had become a different person. Maybe he had always been shy, the alcohol a prop. He wasn't the vivacious man I'd known.

A few months later I heard George had cancer of the throat and then he was stabbed at his home by an intruder. George had heard glass breaking in the middle of the night. He woke Olivia and told her he was going to investigate. She tried to stop him but he insisted.

A man had smashed a window and come up the stairs holding a knife. George met him and there was a fight. Then Olivia appeared, picked up a lamp and hit the intruder over the head. George had been stabbed in the chest.

Eventually the police arrived and grabbed the man. He was a schizophrenic in his 30s with a thing about The Beatles.

George's lung was punctured but he was in hospital for only a few days. But I think the trauma had a much more lasting effect and weakened his body's ability to fight the cancer, and he went on to develop it in his lungs.

He died on November 29, 2001, a little less than two years after the attack.

I burst into tears when I heard he had died; I felt completely bereft. I couldn't bear the thought of a world without George.

When I left him for Eric, he had said that if things didn't work out, I could always come to him. It was such a selfless, loving thing to say.

Now that sense of security had gone. At the end I hadn't grasped how ill he was as I hadn't seen him for a few months. The last time had been at my cottage: he had phoned to say he was coming to Sussex to visit Ringo and Barbara and wanted to see me - I think he was curious to know where I was living. I was so glad we'd had that last meeting.

I think I'll miss George for the rest of my life. I would have incredibly vivid dreams that he was alive. Then I would wake up and the reality would wash over me.

I regret allowing myself to be seduced by Eric and wish I had been stronger. I believed marriage was for ever, and when things were going wrong between George and me I should have gritted my teeth and worked through them.

And I wish I'd known I didn't have to be a doormat and allow both husbands to be so flagrantly faithless.

But if I had resisted Eric, I would never have known that incredible passion. I would never have been the inspiration for those beautiful songs Layla and Wonderful Tonight.

I accept that I paid a high price, but it was in proportion to the depth of the love he and I shared. I loved George deeply, too, but we were younger and it was a gentler love.

I don't regret leaving Eric. All I regret is that I had to. It was painful beyond belief, but if I had stayed, Eric might have drunk himself to death.

In October 2006, Bill Wyman was 70. He had a huge party at Ronnie Scott's and he took over the club. It was full of faces from the Sixties: all were friends, all looked as fabulous as they had 50 years ago.

Given my life over again, I wouldn't change anything.

I loved everything that went with rock 'n' roll. I loved being at the heart of such creativity and being young in such an exciting era. I have known some amazing people and had some unforgettable experiences.

Our generation really did lead a revolution: as teenagers we refused to conform and we're still refusing to do what's expected of us, still breaking the mould, still doing everything it takes to keep age at bay.

One day we might have to give in to sensible shoes - but don't hold your breath.
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